A very strange time

You said you will catch me if I fall
I wonder Why I'm sitting  down here staring at this full moon
I can feel the beast knocking at my heart
I am scared of opening the door for him again
I really don't trust what he will do this time
Have I learned how to control it
Am I really ready for the pain he comes with
She broke my heart by not seeing my struggle
I taught she knew
How is she so dumb she couldn't see the hand writing on the wall
I swear if tears drop from this eyes b/c of you
You are love
My emotions is my biggest strength
Now I think it's failing me
A very strange time
Different time
Where is my mind
Why all this revelations
if I can't get their meanings
My heart understand my reasons but my reasons never understand my heart
Ordinary days got my street dreams like am far away from the reality
I guess we never learn till we shed some tears and blood
Everybody die,s for me I just want to live

#love