Calculated thinking

I stay up at night writing
   while others are sleeping.
I wake up early to write
  while some are still sleeping.
Calculated thinking...
Some are still wondering what's going on?
sometimes I feel like nobody is interested...
What would have become of me
   if I did no believe that I would see the Lord's goodness.
How will I survive if I did not just believe.
Believed is the key we got right?
Teach me what I cannot see.
My strength is failing me
I heard a voice telling me to
  embrace myself like a man
Even when I don't understand some
  signs and mysteries.
I still bow down to pray.

thank you

love